好乱，我好乱
什么是爱？
爱别人前，要先学习怎么爱自己？
不是啊？
你爱自己，就不可能会单纯的爱别人
因为你将会变得自私
每贡献的，只为了自己
而再也不是因为爱
或许你从来都没喜欢过我
只因你爱自己胜于爱过我
你对我的爱是种期望
期望某一天我也能待你一样
你觉得委屈，对自己牺牲念念不忘，因为你并非真情真意。
你为我付出的，是为了自己
会难过，不是我的离开
会生气，不是太爱我
一切的一切，是为了自己
我说的对吗？
你不会承认，因为你不解
但有一天，你真的爱着一个人，你将会了解，你爱自己胜于你爱过我
突然有这种感悟，但也不知道这种想法真确吗？
{
March 31, 2014 [ Monday, March 31, 2014 ]
{ 乌龙啊！
March 30, 2014 [ Sunday, March 30, 2014 ]
现在时间是7.02！
我怎么可能会这么早起床呢？！？！
那是因为我摆了一个大乌龙：（
想当年（昨天）
傍晚一点突然想到revision
就连忙去检查我的schedule book.
1 april - POA revision
我吓了一大跳！
那不就是。。。等一下？
就赶快收拾东西去睡觉
630 起床
刷牙， 冲凉
这时候
觉得不对劲
今天是 31 march eh?
其实也还蛮希望今天没课
因为真的好累
不够睡
其实也是心理作用
如果没睡至少6小时
我的小脑袋会不停地发出“你很累‘ 的紧急铃声
结果， 正如我所想的
今天没课！！！
但我已经冲凉了 ：（
算了吧
读一点书，
10am 去睡觉
睡到12pm?
我怎么可能会这么早起床呢？！？！
那是因为我摆了一个大乌龙：（
想当年（昨天）
傍晚一点突然想到revision
就连忙去检查我的schedule book.
1 april - POA revision
我吓了一大跳！
那不就是。。。等一下？
就赶快收拾东西去睡觉
630 起床
刷牙， 冲凉
这时候
觉得不对劲
今天是 31 march eh?
其实也还蛮希望今天没课
因为真的好累
不够睡
其实也是心理作用
如果没睡至少6小时
我的小脑袋会不停地发出“你很累‘ 的紧急铃声
结果， 正如我所想的
今天没课！！！
但我已经冲凉了 ：（
算了吧
读一点书，
10am 去睡觉
睡到12pm?
{ different people, different mindset
March 27, 2014 [ Thursday, March 27, 2014 ]
每个 人都有诠释一件事的自由
不同的观点来看同一件事就会产生不同的诠释，
而不同的诠释，结果就会截然不同。
因此，
记得，当你生气前，不如往不一样的观点看待某件事，
或许，你会活得更开心点？
选择令自己乐观的观点而做出诠释吧！
happy or not?
the choice is on you
{
March 26, 2014 [ Wednesday, March 26, 2014 ]
didn go for training today as i'm just......
have no idea why but i missed home:(
no feel to dance and i just wan to go home...
not feeling alright but i'm fine..
lol
reached home and have the urge to play piano...
went youtube to watch pianist playing piano and wa....
they really imba
regret not continuing with my piano:( now still stuck at grade 3/4
in love with this song - river flowing in yours.
really hope i can master this song and perform it to my parents:):)
i'm sure they will be happy with me:)
{ BLUR~~~
March 26, 2014 [ ]
why am i so blur
how can i not go for revision class??
how can i even forget to go POA REVISION CLASS?!?!?
OMGGGGGGGGGGG
as for the chalet..
how can i not think probably before settling the date.
spent another $21.40 to change the date
EYELINER..
bought a new eyeliner and its lost now...
and i havn even use once
what am i doing?
BLUR BLUR BLUR!
SUPER BLURRR
dissapointed with myself
how can i not go for revision class??
how can i even forget to go POA REVISION CLASS?!?!?
OMGGGGGGGGGGG
as for the chalet..
how can i not think probably before settling the date.
spent another $21.40 to change the date
EYELINER..
bought a new eyeliner and its lost now...
and i havn even use once
what am i doing?
BLUR BLUR BLUR!
SUPER BLURRR
dissapointed with myself
{
March 25, 2014 [ Tuesday, March 25, 2014 ]
KOI PHOTOSHOOT
{ day #2
March 24, 2014 [ Monday, March 24, 2014 ]
kor kor finally had his own room!!!! (not really, but sharing with my uncle)
daddy kind of....... yea.. keep repeating.. " cos u are the youngest"
no worries dad, i don care about this...
i prefer to sleep with your despite your annoying snores which always drives me crazy.
LOL
his snores really high level...
till the extend that i'm afriad that he will get choked by it.
i'm serious.
And when both my mum and bro snore too...
wa..... machiam snoring band...
imba.... got melody de wor..
anyway...
my aunt is moving out to stay with her sister and i assume that there will be more peace in future?
{ can't be bothered
March 23, 2014 [ Sunday, March 23, 2014 ]
XXX: people may not be what they seem to be..
my fren told me these ytd randomly...
cos i like sha sha de...
yea... i looked blur... but i do know and understand certain things though i didn mention anything..
er.... at times luh...
certain things really didn think that far...
as i still believe humans are kind hearted in nature
its just the culture, the environments... whether its internal or external factors that makes them evil...
but wise words from chu hui ：
"be cant be bothered"
ignorance is a bliss...
" the lesser u care, the happier u are"
ISNT it?
but i still havn reach that level..
though i act as if i don care...
but my brain keep running through all those things...
LOL
Random
my fren told me these ytd randomly...
cos i like sha sha de...
yea... i looked blur... but i do know and understand certain things though i didn mention anything..
er.... at times luh...
certain things really didn think that far...
as i still believe humans are kind hearted in nature
its just the culture, the environments... whether its internal or external factors that makes them evil...
but wise words from chu hui ：
"be cant be bothered"
ignorance is a bliss...
" the lesser u care, the happier u are"
ISNT it?
but i still havn reach that level..
though i act as if i don care...
but my brain keep running through all those things...
LOL
Random
 |
| i love my dad.... |
{ 爱自己
March 23, 2014 [ ]
phone kind of quiet today...
just not used to losing a text buddy..
but good luh, i can finally focus on my things rather than worrying if i have not reply anyone..
this period of time, i need to learn how to be positive.... and whats the real meaning behind of loving ownself..
humans tend to copy what others said but never understand the true meaning behind it..
" 爱别人前， 要先爱自己“
these phrase sound deep and certain people start telling others that they love themselves when they don really know what it is??
"do you love yourself?"
"yes!"
" before you love others, u need to know how to love ownself"
" No"
"So... what is 爱自己？”
some pause and think
replies: i don even have time to go shopping, buy things i like...
means go do facial, medicure, spa etc.
nah... thats not the true meaning of cos..
does that means people who are rich know how to love themselves???
no what..
read a story book regarding this topic and i find it really true...
though i know what they are trying to explain by the term 爱自己
but i wanna be one so to know the true meaning behind it....
erm.... what am i talking..
but anyway... i don love myself.. netiher do i know how to love myself....
and therefore, i don know to love others....
just not used to losing a text buddy..
but good luh, i can finally focus on my things rather than worrying if i have not reply anyone..
this period of time, i need to learn how to be positive.... and whats the real meaning behind of loving ownself..
humans tend to copy what others said but never understand the true meaning behind it..
" 爱别人前， 要先爱自己“
these phrase sound deep and certain people start telling others that they love themselves when they don really know what it is??
"do you love yourself?"
"yes!"
" before you love others, u need to know how to love ownself"
" No"
"So... what is 爱自己？”
some pause and think
replies: i don even have time to go shopping, buy things i like...
means go do facial, medicure, spa etc.
nah... thats not the true meaning of cos..
does that means people who are rich know how to love themselves???
no what..
read a story book regarding this topic and i find it really true...
though i know what they are trying to explain by the term 爱自己
but i wanna be one so to know the true meaning behind it....
erm.... what am i talking..
but anyway... i don love myself.. netiher do i know how to love myself....
and therefore, i don know to love others....
{
March 22, 2014 [ Saturday, March 22, 2014 ]
finally i have the chance to su ku....
ytd was a terrible day for me...
kor called me to give me a scolding... for stealing his camera
i know its my fault but what's make me cry was what he say about father and blah blah blah
it's not that i want to cry, it's my natural reaction when people scold me....
next.. had a disagreement with my fren...
recently, we have been quarreling day and night over small matters...
probably we were too close???
he claimed that i have been spending less time with him and he don feel that i cherish him.
i always use the time which i should be studying to go out with frens and dance
while when i'm with him, i wan to study..
but to me.... i have not been going supper with frens and goin out with them is due to fren's birthday and blah....
but its not the same clique of frens that i'm going out with leiiii
dance is my passion.. i will not never quit it..
or maybe all these are just an excuse???
he wants me to sacrifice my frens and dance and put him as priority??
how????
i'm trying to balance it alr..
but i guess he will never understand..
yes, probably that cliques of friends are not my closest fried, but that doesnt mean i will not contact them, go out with them occassionally ?
hais... we have different experiences and probably you have never meet this types of friends other than your brothers. that's why you won understand
have been crying the whole day ytd... in front of my frens..
i'm not strong enough to hold back my tears :(
keep going to the toilet to wipe off the tears but.. my tears machiam free flow de..
i look like a retard ytd.....:( hais
went to steph bday party after that, thinking that i will feel btr with more people
but it got worse..
i felt lonely.. maybe because the room was so small and i felt very out of place...
left early cos i don't the see point of staying...
true enough, i broke down at my house nearby park..
hahah!
but i'm fine now...
we are over... we won't be in contact.....
probably that's the best for us ba...
i need to focus on my studies rather than quarelling with him..
hahah!
thanks for everything... and yeaaaa
felt a lot btr after su ku-ing certain things here...
i will be happy:)
ytd was a terrible day for me...
kor called me to give me a scolding... for stealing his camera
i know its my fault but what's make me cry was what he say about father and blah blah blah
it's not that i want to cry, it's my natural reaction when people scold me....
next.. had a disagreement with my fren...
recently, we have been quarreling day and night over small matters...
probably we were too close???
he claimed that i have been spending less time with him and he don feel that i cherish him.
i always use the time which i should be studying to go out with frens and dance
while when i'm with him, i wan to study..
but to me.... i have not been going supper with frens and goin out with them is due to fren's birthday and blah....
but its not the same clique of frens that i'm going out with leiiii
dance is my passion.. i will not never quit it..
or maybe all these are just an excuse???
he wants me to sacrifice my frens and dance and put him as priority??
how????
i'm trying to balance it alr..
but i guess he will never understand..
yes, probably that cliques of friends are not my closest fried, but that doesnt mean i will not contact them, go out with them occassionally ?
hais... we have different experiences and probably you have never meet this types of friends other than your brothers. that's why you won understand
have been crying the whole day ytd... in front of my frens..
i'm not strong enough to hold back my tears :(
keep going to the toilet to wipe off the tears but.. my tears machiam free flow de..
i look like a retard ytd.....:( hais
went to steph bday party after that, thinking that i will feel btr with more people
but it got worse..
i felt lonely.. maybe because the room was so small and i felt very out of place...
left early cos i don't the see point of staying...
true enough, i broke down at my house nearby park..
hahah!
but i'm fine now...
we are over... we won't be in contact.....
probably that's the best for us ba...
i need to focus on my studies rather than quarelling with him..
hahah!
thanks for everything... and yeaaaa
felt a lot btr after su ku-ing certain things here...
i will be happy:)
{
March 22, 2014 [ ]
U don understand
how can I give up my dance my frens for u..
U never understand...
And I can never understand it
{
March 22, 2014 [ ]
So mant things happen in a day....
I cannot take it...
Especially when I have Fren with me now...
I can't fulfil my promise not to be emo in front of them...
I'm not strong enough to counter all these
What am I suppose to do..
I'm tired...
Phone left 1% and I can't rant it all here... Hais
{
March 16, 2014 [ Sunday, March 16, 2014 ]
my blog looks damn emoooooo cannnnnnnnnn
but... too bad luh...its somewhere where i can rant and vomit all my unhappiness out...
LOL
some photos to brighten it up! have been attending quite a number of bday party this month.. pocket got holes liao lar hor!!
so here's jun hao, qian yi, alex bday celebration! more to come!!
but... too bad luh...its somewhere where i can rant and vomit all my unhappiness out...
LOL
some photos to brighten it up! have been attending quite a number of bday party this month.. pocket got holes liao lar hor!!
so here's jun hao, qian yi, alex bday celebration! more to come!!
{
March 15, 2014 [ Saturday, March 15, 2014 ]
sorry but i don like you
i know i'm being childish but i cant help it
don like your face!! NOOOOOOOO
what a BIG different when u put on make up (thats not a good thing)
no matter what, u are still 28 plus plus years old...
without make up worst
post on instagram also no likes
who did u go on date with??? WHOOOOOOO??!?!?!?!
i know i'm being childish but i cant help it
don like your face!! NOOOOOOOO
what a BIG different when u put on make up (thats not a good thing)
no matter what, u are still 28 plus plus years old...
without make up worst
post on instagram also no likes
who did u go on date with??? WHOOOOOOO??!?!?!?!
{
March 12, 2014 [ Wednesday, March 12, 2014 ]
i'm the bad person...
indeed bad:)
indeed bad:)
{ what is love
March 08, 2014 [ Saturday, March 8, 2014 ]
do i really love you???
no??
i don't... i don't love anyone neither do i want to be in a relationship...
do i want you to leave?
no..
i don want to... i don want to lose a good friend like you..
so what do i want?
i have never regret knowing you and neither will i want to forget all the bitter sweet memories we had before
what i regret was.... not staying firm in my stand right at the start
u suffered more than me...
u get hurt again and again
i'm selfish... i'm bad... i'm mean.... i'm unreasonable...
i know that...
i'm sorry..
i failed.. i'm useless
i just want to stay single till the day i'm ready..
when i can handle relationship well
when...i'm ready to commit in it..
{ burden
March 08, 2014 [ ]
我好累， 好痛苦
真的
多希望有人能紧紧的抱着我
什么都不问
什么都不说
让我感觉到我不是一个人
我也可以很坚强
被爱是福
但我怎么觉得被爱是种背负
让我内疚，自责
又有谁能明白我做的决定
又有谁会懂我
不是我不说
只是你不会懂
relationship is a burden.
i just wan to spend my teenager life wisely...
do whatever i want without getting restricted
without the need to worry about other people's comments
i don need to have a lot of friends
all i need is a few true friends
yes i did have...
but we didnt meet up that often
we we were busy with our lives:(
when i thought i found a new soulmates,
opening up my heart to them,
telling them all my past,
all my happy, sad memories
they left...
and its all because of a stupid burden reason
every one is just a hi bye friend
how can i trust them
the barriers will always be there
all i need is a good friend,
not a lover!!!
真的
多希望有人能紧紧的抱着我
什么都不问
什么都不说
让我感觉到我不是一个人
我也可以很坚强
被爱是福
但我怎么觉得被爱是种背负
让我内疚，自责
又有谁能明白我做的决定
又有谁会懂我
不是我不说
只是你不会懂
relationship is a burden.
i just wan to spend my teenager life wisely...
do whatever i want without getting restricted
without the need to worry about other people's comments
i don need to have a lot of friends
all i need is a few true friends
yes i did have...
but we didnt meet up that often
we we were busy with our lives:(
when i thought i found a new soulmates,
opening up my heart to them,
telling them all my past,
all my happy, sad memories
they left...
and its all because of a stupid burden reason
every one is just a hi bye friend
how can i trust them
the barriers will always be there
all i need is a good friend,
not a lover!!!
{
March 03, 2014 [ Monday, March 3, 2014 ]
what i need MOST is SLEEP
what i LACK of is SLEEP
but yet, i didn slp well last night,
cos keep kanna DISTURB LIKE HELL
waste my precious time to sleep
i still need to wake up early the next day to continue study eh!
moreover i have paper next day!!
EEYEERRRRRRRR
i hate to get force to do something i don want to
u are not respecting my decision
once twice probably is fine
when i say the third time n you are still acting this way..
really too much
yea, u are selfish
BUT I AM TOOO
suppose to wake up at 10 to start studying
but all thanks to u i slp till 12....
2 hours of proper sleep...
knsssss
{
March 02, 2014 [ Sunday, March 2, 2014 ]
1 april
我将是一个人
一切也会变得不一样
当然希望这是最好的选择
因为我想要自由
想要开开心心做我想做的事
没有牵挂
没有拘束
也希望你能开心
-12.45pm-
我将是一个人
一切也会变得不一样
当然希望这是最好的选择
因为我想要自由
想要开开心心做我想做的事
没有牵挂
没有拘束
也希望你能开心
-12.45pm-
{
March 01, 2014 [ Saturday, March 1, 2014 ]
对不起
是我不懂得控制我的情绪
虽然没能爆炸！
但还是舒服点
感情是个背负
重担
我不想挑起的重担
K BACK TO NORMAL ME!
HAHAHA!
went qian yi birthday party!
overall it was fun luh!
and it was my first stepping into a shop where we bought her a present
it's erm.....
just... learnt smt new uh? knew how certain things look like
n how certain things work.
is it just normal or just me that i'm a noob of this.
so....yea.... lucky it was not me who received the present
if not cmf kanna tease like hell for not knowing what that was....
so yea....
cant wait for the photos to be up
cmf a lot of unglam
HAHHAHA
n bye
是我不懂得控制我的情绪
虽然没能爆炸！
但还是舒服点
感情是个背负
重担
我不想挑起的重担
K BACK TO NORMAL ME!
HAHAHA!
went qian yi birthday party!
overall it was fun luh!
and it was my first stepping into a shop where we bought her a present
it's erm.....
just... learnt smt new uh? knew how certain things look like
n how certain things work.
is it just normal or just me that i'm a noob of this.
so....yea.... lucky it was not me who received the present
if not cmf kanna tease like hell for not knowing what that was....
so yea....
cant wait for the photos to be up
cmf a lot of unglam
HAHHAHA
n bye
