男人啊！你在害怕什么！
没信任，又怎能维持婚姻呢？
从不打女人，
结婚后， 老婆就不是女人了？
婚姻太可怕了
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July 29, 2014 [ Tuesday, July 29, 2014 ]
婚前婚后，反差也太大了吧！
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July 20, 2014 [ Sunday, July 20, 2014 ]
These weekends are crazy. Literally dancing the whole day
Sat
10-1230 GHH dancing under the HOT sun. I rather feel 热 than 嗮.
2-3 self prac
330-630 eechin
730-11 opening
Go home prac for oschool audition again
Sun
9-1 audition
3-5 partner work
5-6 prac for performance
7-10 vetting ( dance 3 times)
Couldn't full out at all during vetting. Damn bad. Timing also cui. Not well done seriously
And my back is aching since morning. It's either aching or I hurt my back:((
Feeling lethargic... Reasons is definately not because I dance the whole day. But..
No idea..
It's fun dancing the whole day.. But., my body acting weird
Tried my best to full out. Mind over body. But. That's not how far I can go...
After that Chiong to mustafa to settle performance thingy. But wait
End up they say no need. Heng
Reached home n bath and I start to feel the worst.
I guess I'm sick.
Fever syndrome - lethargic, muscle ache, dehydrated, etc
Wanted to check my temp. But my themometer stop at 37.6 and shut down.
Lol...
Lying on bed now and I can't seem to fall asleep
Machiam breathing out fire.
Sat
10-1230 GHH dancing under the HOT sun. I rather feel 热 than 嗮.
2-3 self prac
330-630 eechin
730-11 opening
Go home prac for oschool audition again
Sun
9-1 audition
3-5 partner work
5-6 prac for performance
7-10 vetting ( dance 3 times)
Couldn't full out at all during vetting. Damn bad. Timing also cui. Not well done seriously
And my back is aching since morning. It's either aching or I hurt my back:((
Feeling lethargic... Reasons is definately not because I dance the whole day. But..
No idea..
It's fun dancing the whole day.. But., my body acting weird
Tried my best to full out. Mind over body. But. That's not how far I can go...
After that Chiong to mustafa to settle performance thingy. But wait
End up they say no need. Heng
Reached home n bath and I start to feel the worst.
I guess I'm sick.
Fever syndrome - lethargic, muscle ache, dehydrated, etc
Wanted to check my temp. But my themometer stop at 37.6 and shut down.
Lol...
Lying on bed now and I can't seem to fall asleep
Machiam breathing out fire.
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July 03, 2014 [ Thursday, July 3, 2014 ]
从来都没得到你的认可
我是你眼中的笨蠢妹
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July 03, 2014 [ ]
我想选择自己想走的路
从不后悔去sp
代价却是永远的被讲，永远的争辩
或许，我真的后悔了
一家人为了这件事吵来吵去
我真不应该
就因为你后悔了，
你不要我走同样的路
就因为你没好日子过，
你要我和你一样
就因为你长大了
你要我一样成熟
做人好难
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July 03, 2014 [ ]
naruto load too long....
lazy to watch and i have no idea what to do now...
so bored!!!!!
karma... karma...
feel so lonely
probably i shd head to the park to do some PT ba...
like so poor thing sia... KNS
lazy to watch and i have no idea what to do now...
so bored!!!!!
karma... karma...
feel so lonely
probably i shd head to the park to do some PT ba...
like so poor thing sia... KNS
{ alone at mac....
July 03, 2014 [ ]
chased myself out of house ...
made a mistake of gg home early again..
is it a curse or smt?
smt will surely happen whenever i'm home early...
and what happen today??
where shd i start?
returned sis my phone bills...
我 ：where is the letter regarding my monthly phone bills
爸 ： its with sis
me : no, its not. blah blah blah. i need to check my bills why is it so expensive. its not with her
dad : blah blah blah
bro : its with sis. u never ask her why is it so ex... (he starts to question me)
i really don like talking to bro. or shd i say, i don dare to talk to him (if u know why)
but anyway, 他什么都不知道。 更何况，我在问爸爸， 不是他。
问他也是白问
也不喜欢他的语气
就应他 ： 不要跟我说话
i jus want to end the conversation with him. but i know, i'm showing him attitude.
NO, i didn show him attitude, but i know my tone was wrong.
he went to approach sis and told her “hui hui say u cheat her money"
shocked.. i swear to all the god that i didn say that....
the feeling of being misudnerstand :( what can i say.... especially shes my sis... so fierce, will she believe me?
sis starts to scold me regarding phone bill
as usual, i diam all the way.
she went back to her room, and i know i have to leave the house before disaster happens.
went room to packed my things
kor and dad start to argue...
yea.. regarding me
as sooon as i stepped out of my room, i guess its too late...
kor say i have no manners
roll eyes at him ( i swear i never，i don't roll eyes )
ask him not to talk to me
but i know i'm wrong. really no manners
爸爸也开始说我没礼貌
就这样， 他一句， 你一句的
无所谓， 我知道是我的错
但也不知怎么搞的
我 ： 那要说什么， 你diam ah?
我也吓到了！ 哈哈哈
哥哥就这样匆过来，放佛要打我
我吓坏了
魂差点飞出来
或许有点夸张
但， 我确实这么这么的胆小
吓哭了
就这样， 继续被骂
骂到， 姐姐出来， 想搞清楚状况
记性不好，
忘了哥哥和姐姐在吵什么
我还忙着招魂回来
但只记得。。。
好伤心哦
哥哥说我笨， 我蠢
从小一直被说
早该习惯， 但听了还是好伤心， 沮丧
被说全部是装出来的
假装害怕
假装怕他
哈哈哈。 原来他是这么看我的
装可怜， 哭者必赢， 博取同情
哈哈哈
小学时， 也曾被说装无辜， 装单纯
:( 不喜欢这个感觉， 就。。 根本回答不了
仿佛说
‘我没有’ ： 太假
‘你说对了’ ：也不对啊 :(
事情过了。。。 反正现在也是一个人在mac...
am i gonna wait til they slp alr, then go back home again?
lucky i brought my laptop out.. can watch NARUTO! yay!!
but i'm feeling very lonely
有人抱抱我好吗
让我觉得我被需要
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July 02, 2014 [ Wednesday, July 2, 2014 ]
Have been losing quite a number of things recently.
The first ever lipstick I bought.., 不见了！锁匙项链也不见了！应该是在家里，但就是想不起在哪儿😩 portable charger 有问题，ear piece 不见:( 没赚什么钱，结果还要花这么多钱。
End of ranting :)
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July 02, 2014 [ ]
给自己太多隐形的压力了
被讲，想太多
被夸，想太多
也不知是属于好或坏的压力。。。
越多表演，当舞者的责任就越大，
但我相信，我也会变得更强
同时也会被莫名的压力给击倒
不能想太多，
不管他人的想法！
但也不能不管啊！
做人好难
我睡不着。。。
