31 May marks the last day i'm going out with you...
does that mean the last day being frens?
i have no idea...
everyone can misunderstand me...
but i don wan people i care to misunderstand me...
i'm a very self conscious person...
people judge me..
people assume..
i mind... i really mind...
but wat can i do?
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May 30, 2014 [ Friday, May 30, 2014 ]
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May 30, 2014 [ ]
Even my good Fren said this to me...
Two people said these and I believe there's more who talking behind my back
What have I done to deserve all this?
Am I wrong?
Who will understand my current state?
Am I suppose to ignore them?
I will get judged no matter what I do
I jus wan a peaceful life... I don wan smt to happen and end up getting pin point by others
I'm very sad....
Very very sad...
Who can I confront.... Who can I approach
Who can stop my tears from flowing...
Burden
Burden
Burden
I don wan to get stereotype....:( I don wan to get judged
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May 26, 2014 [ Monday, May 26, 2014 ]
always wanted to blog about my birthday party...
but.... im kind of lazy...
LOL
in short!
i had fun that day!
i feel blessed with the people around me..
concerning me, helping me when i needed help.
You know who you are ^^
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May 24, 2014 [ Saturday, May 24, 2014 ]
好烦，
我得应付的不止是一个人
我不想伤害任何人
我不想再因为一个决定
而弄的其他人伤心， 自责
那我跟坏人有什么两样
我错了。。。
不该当好人
不该做朋友该做的事？
我不知道
遇到太多类似的事
哪种历史又会重演呢？
不会是那个，恨我入骨，每天烦我报复我，吵我家人那件吧？
冤枉啊！
我心太软了
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May 24, 2014 [ ]
为何我的感情世界这么复杂
我只想要个平静的生活
不介意没有男朋友
但不能没有朋友
我不需要为我爱的死去活来的人
不值得
男女朋友不是两个人的事
它也包括朋友与家人
就连被追时，
也关系到朋友与家人
不同人不同的观念
无论我做什么决定，都一定会被人批评
做人好难
况且我又是个self conscious 的人
那更糟糕
Avoid - 被说 childish
Fren - 被说给他期望
Reject - 没长眼，笨
Talk it out be Fren - 说说而已，no action
Contract/deal - 错误信念，玩感情
又有谁能明白我的犹豫不觉
能了解我的心情
懂我的决定
没人！因为我没说！
说了一点，却被冤枉
你也不想管我了
反正你也认为我说的做的都不一样
算了
反正也不是第一次发生这些事
只因不同人不同的想法，做法
也得采取不同的解决方式
我累了
好累
喜欢女人比较好吧
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May 24, 2014 [ ]
Angry....
U don trust me and what can I say...
Machiam I did the wrong thing,
WTH?!
U bought the cap n u assume I took it?!?
It belongs to my Fren n not yours!
Jus because I always take your things n ur assume that I'm the one who took it?
WOW??
Ok. I break the trust your had in me.
It's me.. My fault.
But.. Pls! The photo u showed me is LA cap. The one I have is New York. Though the photo is blur but I know it's LA. N ur still think the one I'm holding on is yours. Even sis think so,
OK FINE!!! N your LA CAP is always in the box. You are the one who don even bother to find it!
U said u found my purple cap n why didn u return it to me?!?!
Wan me to find it myself?!
I find alr but your jus assume that I didn... Didn make any effort to find it.
And since u said u saw it two-three weeks ago, alright. I go home to find.
But NO!! It's not there. KNS..
Lazy to continue
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May 19, 2014 [ Monday, May 19, 2014 ]
Last paper tml !!!!
LIKE A FINALLY AFTER 2/3 months
cant wait for tml, but wait a minute...
i have yet to finish studying:( cannot be complacent
actually kind of sad that i didn put in my very best for my exams.
i have time to study but.... i went to dance, went out with frens, celebrate bday instead
but, all i hope is that i will pass all my papers.
i wanted to get more than jus a pass for all my papers, but i guess.... its kind of hard:(
the papers are easy... really easy IFFFFF i study hard for it.
spotting questions are totally not my style. i used to study ALL the chapters even though we have the choice to choose certain topics out of all.
BUT, hais.. play too much and hence,.did not have the time to finish study.
BAD BAD BAD
3.49PM
it has been 3 years...
and i starting to forget all the memories we had tgt...
advantages of having STM ^^
what i missed was the feelings of liking someone
and the genuine care and concern i felt from you
JOKE.
- 4.02pm-
i don wan to get old:(:(
old - useless, nth to do, bored, live aimlessly, wait for death
i don want to experience that:(
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May 16, 2014 [ Friday, May 16, 2014 ]
shall let pictures do the talking, will upload more pictures after my exams ^^
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May 07, 2014 [ Wednesday, May 7, 2014 ]
肚子好饿好饿
从10至 2000 只喝了一杯泡泡茶！
忍了这么久只为了回家吃一顿饭
结果，全被妈妈吃光了
妈妈就决定帮我煮荷包蛋
这时，哥哥回来了
大发雷霆！ 怪妈妈把家里弄得这么油烟
煮蛋却没开窗
就这样， 妈妈因为帮我煮蛋而被骂：（：（
我也一样遭殃。。。
被哥哥骂个臭头，
干吗吃蛋
为何不吃水煮蛋！
说我浪费水，因为我的一颗蛋，妈妈要重新洗衣服！
把家弄得这么油烟
我错了。。。
不该这么早回来
我错了
不该吃鸡蛋
我错了
什么都错了：（
妈妈还跟我道歉
我哭得更惨
明明是我的错
为什么跟我道歉！
是我害了妈妈被骂
是我没用
是我笨
我不想这么早回家了
不想。。
也不要
从10至 2000 只喝了一杯泡泡茶！
忍了这么久只为了回家吃一顿饭
结果，全被妈妈吃光了
妈妈就决定帮我煮荷包蛋
这时，哥哥回来了
大发雷霆！ 怪妈妈把家里弄得这么油烟
煮蛋却没开窗
就这样， 妈妈因为帮我煮蛋而被骂：（：（
我也一样遭殃。。。
被哥哥骂个臭头，
干吗吃蛋
为何不吃水煮蛋！
说我浪费水，因为我的一颗蛋，妈妈要重新洗衣服！
把家弄得这么油烟
我错了。。。
不该这么早回来
我错了
不该吃鸡蛋
我错了
什么都错了：（
妈妈还跟我道歉
我哭得更惨
明明是我的错
为什么跟我道歉！
是我害了妈妈被骂
是我没用
是我笨
我不想这么早回家了
不想。。
也不要
