無法言語.

i must be a retard to contact my ex to rant about all these...
he's the only one i feel comfortable talking to...
don mind telling him all the ugly things that happen at home...

but hearing his voice, makes me even more sad...
i miss him.. i really do.
jus read my previous post about him..
love makes me childish...hahaha

he asked me... am i waiting for him
i cried even harder...
sha gua....i really hope n wan to be with you..
but... to have a happy family that i always wanted..
i guess you arent the one..
i am family oriented but you arent.

he said got girls ask him out on sat to watch movie: jurasstic world.
i don like it but i cant be selfish..
my heart hurts...

what shd i do if he have a boyfriend..
zen me ban...

每次看小孩子的戏，就恨不得快点成家立业，有自己的孩子。。。
但，看看我的家的情况。。。我不禁感到害怕。。。

姐姐一人在房里哭泣。。。哭得好惨好惨。。
身为妹妹的我，却无能为力。。。好没用.。
只能一人在外头默默的陪你哭，一起哭。。
好想拥抱你。。但我不敢
好想叫爸爸起来帮忙。。
但他已进入梦乡。。。

这种无助。。。我懂。。也经历过
没人在身边。。没人哭诉。。
只能自己跟自己说话。。。。
头好痛。。。心很不舒服。。。
想喊出来，又不行。。。
唯一能做的。。。也只是哭。。再哭。。。继续哭。。。