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finally i have the chance to su ku....
ytd was a terrible day for me...

kor called me to give me a scolding... for stealing his camera
i know its my fault but what's make me cry was what he say about father and blah blah blah
it's not that i want to cry, it's my natural reaction when people scold me....

next.. had a disagreement with my fren...
recently, we have been quarreling day and night over small matters...
probably we were too close???
he claimed that i have been spending less time with him and he don feel that i cherish him.
i always use the time which i should be studying to go out with frens and dance
while when i'm with him, i wan to study..

but to me.... i have not been going supper with frens and goin out with them is due to fren's birthday and blah....
but its not the same clique of frens that i'm going out with leiiii
dance is my passion.. i will not never quit it..
or maybe all these are just an excuse???
he wants me to sacrifice my frens and dance and put him as priority??
how????
i'm trying to balance it alr..
but i guess he will never understand..
yes, probably that cliques of friends are not my closest fried, but that doesnt mean i will not contact them, go out with them occassionally ?
hais... we have different experiences and probably you have never meet this types of friends other than your brothers. that's why you won understand

have been crying the whole day ytd... in front of my frens..
i'm not strong enough to hold back my tears :(
keep going to the toilet to wipe off the tears but.. my tears machiam free flow de..
i look like a retard ytd.....:( hais

went to steph bday party after that, thinking that i will feel btr with more people
but it got worse..
i felt lonely.. maybe because the room was so small and i felt very out of place...
left early cos i don't the see point of staying...
true enough, i broke down at my house nearby park..
hahah!

but i'm fine now...
we are over... we won't be in contact.....
probably that's the best for us ba...
i need to focus on my studies rather than quarelling with him..
hahah!
thanks for everything... and yeaaaa
felt a lot btr after su ku-ing certain things here...

i will be happy:)